Video Editing
Unrelated to editing, but I slept way too late today. I was so exhausted from work yesterday that I somewhat ignored the new schedule I was going for.
In order to push through this, I'm going to try to take naps before work, so I can start getting used to the feeling of waking up to focus on work!
The last obstacle, which won't be an obstacle come Thursday, hopefully... Is my lack of a second monitor. I have gotten so used to having two, that only using one for the majority of this video has had a pretty big impact on how quickly I edit. I wanted most of these edits done by tomorrow, but I really can't force myself to.
Everyone comes from different backgrounds. Everyone sees friendships and relationships in different ways. It was kind of hard for me to deal with relationships that can change erratically, ones that change completely within what feels like seconds. I have attachment issues to people, and even with like online relationships. Not like relationship relationships, but I guess like online friendships. Due to the nature of more and more distant online relations in our society, it can feel quite jarring when someone doesn't reciprocate how they actually feel about you. You can feel very personally close to someone, but they might see you as an option within a sea of people.
Maybe people have the opposite problem as me, and feel like they push people away more than they feel connected. We can feel hurt by both of our actions and deflect at each other, which removes a common ground for honest communication. Everyone is different, and maybe I think this way because for me it's hard to cope with knowing someone for so long, and feeling as if they can just cut me out and move on from it at any moment. Me making someone uncomfortable is just their excuse to act on their impulse, of pushing people away. They can remain "friends" with someone up until they find that friendship too much work. It hurts when someone wouldn't want to make things workout, even through misunderstandings; understandings that they seemingly don't want to hear or even acknowledge.