Dustin's Dream Accomplishment Journal Edition 2026 GOTY Title

how are you feeling?

happy

anxious

tired

proud

numb

excited

stressed

at peace

what's on your mind?

what happened today?

I woke up at 6am, got bagels with a friend at 7am, and had a discussion about my feelings with him verbally. I talked about fully understanding myself, and why I felt certain ways, and he opened up about some stuff happening in his life. After we talked we both bought a half dozen bagels for our families. I got home and did the unexpected. I opened up to my Mom about my life. Things I never let her know about. Things like how I was bullied, how I smoked weed to clear my overthinking brain, how I dabbled in psychedelics knowing full well that drugs like these were the gateway for drugs that killed most of my family, I told her about my friends and I told her about the weed induced anxiety that made me believe that my family hated me. Instead of avoiding these topics like I thought she would, she was really understanding. This was a dream of mine a year ago, opening up to my problems to my family. My original film idea was going to be me opening up about my feelings to my family, kind of a joke a dream in a sense because I could have just openly talked about it instead lol. But not a joke to me, I really couldn't open up about it until today. My Mom opened up about her and my Dad's friendships who ended similarly, and how bad my Dad's mental health was before he passed. Most of his mental issues came from his brother, my uncle. The man in my life I swore I would become the least like, my anti-inspiration. He plays games all day in one room, he verbally abused his own mother, and barely said goodbye over the phone before she passed. He was and still is the biggest piece of dogshit that I know. My grandmother practically let him do whatever he wanted, because he was her son. This of which is what caused all of the stress on my Dad. He had to take care of her almost every single day. He had to get her out of that house constantly, especially when my uncle went on violent rampages. I never knew my Dad was struggling with his mental health, and feel really bad that I didn't catch on. He would drink a lot, especially with one of my neighbors, I had thought he just did it for fun, but in reality he would really open up to him about his problems. They had a really good friendship and they were incredibly sad to hear of his passing. During some vacations when I was a little bit younger I had rather wanted to play video games than really go on vacation. But my Dad needed those vacations a lot more than I realized and I wish I was able to enjoy them more with him. By the time we were finally able to evict my uncle, my Dad had already passed. It's sad that he wasn't able to live through the eviction of the uncle he wanted practically dead for so long. It's unfair, and frustrating that he couldn't see him crumble, and a little glad my Dad wasn't able to see just how much my uncle got from my grandmother's will. So much money, yet the first year after the eviction he spent most of it gambling and seeing concerts. I hate that guy so much. Aside from other family stuff, I have given myself a two week period to create a film. Similarly to how I completed college assignments last second, the pressure of only having two weeks to complete this IS GONNA MOTIVATE ME A LOT! That second week is my first vacation week off of work! I can't wait to finally get some time off omg. I have a better idea of what I want to create, and am going to visit the golf course again as soon as it's nice out, which hopefully tomorrow is...

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goals for next time

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CLEAN UP THAT DAMN BUILDING
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KEEEP MOVING FORWARD... RRRRAAAAAAAGGGGGHHHH