Editing On A Sunday?

Hello hi, another day where I felt I didn't do too much. I hope when I get up tomorrow I'll have the energy to do some stuff. I've been trying to get myself back into tv shows, and so far it isn't working. It doesn't matter the quality, I just can't find myself watching episodes and seasons and stuff, or at least anything that's new. I've been too vocal to some people about not really enjoying the things I used to before. Maybe part of it is growing up, and the other part being the recent changes in my life. Maybe it's not necessarily a bad thing to find enjoyment out of new things, maybe I should focus on those instead of wasting my time trying to entertain myself. But to enjoy those things, I would probably have to quit my job. My hours cut me from the people closest to me. But I like my job, I like trying my best working there and I feel a sort of attachment to my co-workers. Similar to my serving job, I really really liked the co-workers there. But the best ones left soon, and when it eventually came to me leaving I struggled to tell my bosses I wanted to quit. I'm 6 months into a position where pretty much everyone likes me. I'm in an incredible spot to move up eventually, and I'm scared about losing seeing everyone 5 days a week. It's like a high school in there, everyone's there 5 days a week, sometimes they call out. There's drama sometimes, but there's also people who light up each other's day. People you can hear coming and are bracing to laugh once you can hear them up close. It's a fun cluster of people, that sadly may be getting their hours cut soon. Last week my manager was late to the meeting because his higher up had a really long meeting with him. He informed us that some changes are happening due to us not really hitting the profit quota. The biggest offense to that quota is the amount of people needed for the building to run normally. He's been hiring 10-20 to even 30 extra people than necessary each day because that building needs a lot of man power. I'm guessing that either our hours are getting cut, or the entire building will run for less time. Well either way our hours get cut haha. But yeah the company is in a terrible state especially after certain plane crash. It doesn't matter where you are in life, the future for a lot of things is bleak. But it doesn't mean your future has the look bleak as well. Taking steps, even half steps towards what you want to do is all you really need to do. I wanna get other people on this report on feelings grind set... But maybe all it really does is push people away. Shout out to all my readers, it's day Lucky 7, if you're struggling with mental health like I am, please talk to a therapist. What worked on me was being told respectfully "I will not be your therapist", and "As a friend I want to see you better*. I've had too many friendships of people talking about me privately, having feelings or problems they won't bring up. I hate having people around me who feel they put barriers up against me, so having a friend be as blunt and as straight forward as he was, spoke volume to me, and broke my own barrier that prevented me from respecting myself, and seeking therapy. And I'm really trying to respect his words by improving myself everyday to eventually show him that his words changed me. And then we get a super bro friendship type of ship. Like a, you saved my life bro. And then we bro fist and our fists explode and it's like awesome. I do that with people at work, and WOW man it feels so good to do. I can not emphasize how important bro fisting people at work for creating connections with people like actually. Everyone does the fist, but I started the explode trend and some people only do it exclusively with me. See like this is where I get dopamine. Not sitting in front of a screen for hours, but just making people happy, feeling special, and trying my best at a job that sinks in quicksand. This was a good paragraph, I went from talking about tv shows, to work, to therapy, and then I wrapped it up with work and tv shows. And Bro fisting with my bro, and brothers at ups. Should I be afraid of feeling super connected with these people? I want to quit, but I want to stay. I should stay, but I want to quick. Money to hours available ratio 50/50. Hmm, maybe if I don't stay up till 03:10am after a Sunday night writing this would give me energy in the morning... Am I done typing yet? I think I'm over compensating for lack of progress, or something... STOP TYPING